Originally Written on
7.9.13
Tonight is a mom fail
night (well that’s how I feel). The night started out normal. Daniel
and I went to work, Hadleigh went to school, and Hayden was at home with NeNe.
I got home and we went out to a local restaurants burger night for dinner.
Things were good. Then we got home. The dogs were excited to see us when we
walked in, so they started playing with each other and being
loud. Well, Hadleigh thought they were "fighting" and
FREAKS. So Daniel got them to stop and lay down on the floor while I went upstairs
to get Hayden to sleep for the night. Hadleigh still freaks. It
turns to a Full blown - almost three year old - crying meltdown.
Hadleigh ends up going
to her room to get away from the dogs and tells Daniel she is ready to go
night-night. I end up handing Hayden to Daniel because Hadleigh
wants me. She kept telling me "Isis and Duke aren't my friends
anymore".
While I’m in consoling
Hadleigh, Hayden cries because I’m not with her. I never win. I finally get
Hadleigh calmed down, but she won't leave my side so I get her to lay quietly
with me while I get Hayden to sleep. Hadleigh ended up falling asleep while
waiting – This whole meltdown was probably just her being tired and a toddler,
but man! Both girls asleep (Woohoo!), so I quietly went downstairs to start
some dishes…Got through washing my first dish to Hayden crying for me. I'm
sitting here in bed because she starts crying when I even attempt to get up.
Then, my mind starts
racing on why they only want me, why they have meltdowns, possible reactions to
me being a pushover… "Gosh I hope I don't screw them up" "Please
don't let them have anxieties" "Please don't let my actions make them
overly dependent"
Linking Up for Wildcard Wednesday!
I feel that way all the time. Its tough figuring out a balance.
ReplyDeleteyep! I struggle with it practically every day!
DeleteI totally know how you feel! Sometimes I just sit back and question my whole parenting technique because I'm so scared that I'm going to mess them up. Someone once told me, if you care enough to worry about messing them up, you probably won't mess them up. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteIt's nice to hear others feel the same way! I love the advice they gave you - definitely puts things into perspective :)
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